A few weeks ago in my English class we were reading the great american masterpiece, "Death of a Salesman" by Arthur Mitchell. My teacher began saying how in moments of high emotion the characters would reach a poetic level and how it shows the fictional nature. This has been bugging me for quite sometime and tonight I realized he was wrong.
Things people have said to me stick with me more than things that I have read. Sure "etu Brute" or whatever but overall it has been what people say to me in person. Tonight my music teacher and I were discussing the discovery of music and how it would have to have been the perfect accident. He said something that I will not soon forget, "music is so pathetically human". Now this seems very mundane but the way he said it and the conviction he had made me stop and think. I think people are afraid, everyone has the potential to be a poet but in our society it is shunned upon.
Now I don't just through this out there I have a few facts to back it up. We don't all get the chance to express ourselves fully. If the world could hear some of our thoughts then the world would be much more musical and romantic. Who knows what someone would say next when the blush and say "or whatever" or "nevermind." We don't all get the chance to have an Al Pacino moment, like in "Scent of a Women." But if you did, you had that moment, all eyes on you, and you could let your heart out. The words could flow out like a beautiful paintings. Like it had already been scripted before. The world and the ears of people could be your canvas. Poems and feelings are what makes us human. I challenge you to try, before you blush let it out, go for it.
I have tried to be poetic, because this is, was, and will be, My Life in Words.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Welcome to Hell
Ahh a new semester, it is filled with the hope and promise of better grades more effort and that wonderful cash given to you by those proud relatives. The first few days are great. But if you are like me and countless other kids after the first 3 days the old habits return. I have found myself saying things like "well only 87 days to go, the three hundreds I got should boost my grade the rest of the semester." And of course the quarter comes to a close, and I am in trouble. Anyway thats the intro to the wonderful story I am about to dive into.
Now I am not "the smartest" kid in the world, but I am certainly not dumb. I am currently taking honors spanish 4. Some more backstory I have not taken a spanish class for an entire year (ya 12 months I counted). But on tuesday I spent 84 minutes smiling and nodding as my teacher talked in spanish at i'd say a good 3-4000 words a second (or at least thats how it sounded). Today was no different unfortunately, and it is very hard for me to hide from teachers (being so good looking and all). So I was forced to answer some questions where my answers were not even close to what she was asking me. At the end of the period we were allowed to begin our homework. She came around and asked me how I was doing, I responded by saying, "Great, if your definition of great is horrible." She then proceeded to tell me I should consider dropping that class. So I may be in the market for a new EF block class. Anyway I just thought I would share that with you, while I pray for the snow to cancel school.
Well this is just one of my many stories, stay tuned because this is going to be, My Life in Words.
Now I am not "the smartest" kid in the world, but I am certainly not dumb. I am currently taking honors spanish 4. Some more backstory I have not taken a spanish class for an entire year (ya 12 months I counted). But on tuesday I spent 84 minutes smiling and nodding as my teacher talked in spanish at i'd say a good 3-4000 words a second (or at least thats how it sounded). Today was no different unfortunately, and it is very hard for me to hide from teachers (being so good looking and all). So I was forced to answer some questions where my answers were not even close to what she was asking me. At the end of the period we were allowed to begin our homework. She came around and asked me how I was doing, I responded by saying, "Great, if your definition of great is horrible." She then proceeded to tell me I should consider dropping that class. So I may be in the market for a new EF block class. Anyway I just thought I would share that with you, while I pray for the snow to cancel school.
Well this is just one of my many stories, stay tuned because this is going to be, My Life in Words.
Monday, January 24, 2011
More Formal!
Hello! My last post I realized was not much of an introduction to who I actually am. So why would you want to read what he had to say? Well I sure would not have been interested! But, where to begin? How about at the beginning!
I am a 17 year old kid who has had a hard time understanding the world around himself. I recently realized I was living a "charade". I pretended like I understand why people acted the way they do, but as I have come to learn I have no idea. That age old advice to "just be yourself" has seemed to have been swept away in this world we live. With inventions like Xbox live, and Facebook we have discovered new and easier ways to hide ourselves from the world. It's easy. Make a profile where there are no background checks and you can be whoever you want to. I will admit I made a fake Facebook for a man named Zach Zuy in order to cheat at Mob Wars, but that's as far as I've gone. I have never had the urge to be someone else. Ya there are parts of me I don't like, some examples being my work habits, my weight, and my seemingly inescapable optimism. But I have always looked past those and lived so far.
My mom has referred to me as a pessimist, but I think I am an optimist. I am always looking for the good in humanity and in people (even though sometimes it is not there). I do have pessimistic views however, like most people. One of them being how people are perceived in society. I know how people are different at home compared to school, work, and life in general. I have had to deal with a lot of bullshit this past few years, and even though I can put on a smile in school and at work, at home its much more difficult. (I won't bore you with the details of my home life, I'm sure it will come up).
Anyways I am no saint. I have hid behind an exterior and put up my fair share of defenses. But in the last month while attempting to live my life who I am all the time I have realized things. Some I did a while ago but now the pieces are fitting in place like a jig saw puzzle. But now like the expression when one door close another opens. My discoveries have lead to new questions. So come with me and we can explore people. This is going to be, My Life in Words.
I am a 17 year old kid who has had a hard time understanding the world around himself. I recently realized I was living a "charade". I pretended like I understand why people acted the way they do, but as I have come to learn I have no idea. That age old advice to "just be yourself" has seemed to have been swept away in this world we live. With inventions like Xbox live, and Facebook we have discovered new and easier ways to hide ourselves from the world. It's easy. Make a profile where there are no background checks and you can be whoever you want to. I will admit I made a fake Facebook for a man named Zach Zuy in order to cheat at Mob Wars, but that's as far as I've gone. I have never had the urge to be someone else. Ya there are parts of me I don't like, some examples being my work habits, my weight, and my seemingly inescapable optimism. But I have always looked past those and lived so far.
My mom has referred to me as a pessimist, but I think I am an optimist. I am always looking for the good in humanity and in people (even though sometimes it is not there). I do have pessimistic views however, like most people. One of them being how people are perceived in society. I know how people are different at home compared to school, work, and life in general. I have had to deal with a lot of bullshit this past few years, and even though I can put on a smile in school and at work, at home its much more difficult. (I won't bore you with the details of my home life, I'm sure it will come up).
Anyways I am no saint. I have hid behind an exterior and put up my fair share of defenses. But in the last month while attempting to live my life who I am all the time I have realized things. Some I did a while ago but now the pieces are fitting in place like a jig saw puzzle. But now like the expression when one door close another opens. My discoveries have lead to new questions. So come with me and we can explore people. This is going to be, My Life in Words.
A Quick Oversight!!!
Hey everyone! I've wanted to do this for a while. (And by this I do mean spilling my guts on the internet to total strangers). But in this "blog" I will attempt to enlighten people on how my brain works. I always have felt like I should tell people how and why I think the way I do. Don't worry this won't include any religion of politics because I think frankly that has nothing to do with every day life. This was a nice little short and sweet intro to me. Please follow I promise I am kinda funny.
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